The Cold Hearted B*t**~ That Other Side

"I think it's time I should be that cold hearted B*t** !"

Sounds familiar... ? I bet some cash that it has came across your mind, at least once in your life. You can't lie to me.*coyly smiles*

I'm laughing as I write this, because I have gone down that line a few times in my life, however merely just as a fleeting statement as I let myself feel the anger run though my veins.(yes, feel the anger, darling ! That's the only way you can process it. )

When I said it, I was already aware of what that cold-hearted persona represented~ protection. A way to guard my heart from the layers of hurt, disappointment, and betrayal I’ve experienced. Just saying it out aloud, felt like I already had a bullet and fire proof shield erected around me.

After all, who wants to let the pain in, over and gain (?), without putting up some kind of armour ?

The idea to shut it all out and put on a tough (Xena the Warrior Princess) exterior than to constantly feel the weight of it all, seems so much easier.

The truth ? You can only stay cold for so long before you start to crack, before your walls begin to feel like a prison more than a protection. Well....unless you are holding on to your ego a little too tight and she is playing tricks on you. It might be a time for some "exorcism" and re-alignment ! (someone pass me the moon water, please).

Cold.

Detached.

Sure, sounds kinda seductive; a quick fix, plastering a band aid on your wound. But don't tell me that you can't feel how taxing it is, to your soul, mind and inevitably your heart and body.

And here's the thing~I have learned that keeping my heart warm, soft, open and loving is the answer. It’s the key to reclaiming the sacred self that’s always been within me, within you. The sacred self that feels free to be so true to herself and the people around her.

The sacred self that is free from the weight of conditionings projected onto her. The sacred self that is not afraid of the depths of vulnerabilities within her.

And Life ? Sure has its way of making you peel back those layers, even when you think you’ve built enough walls to keep everything at bay. Just think about it.

And you know how some people just don't seem to age their age ? They seem to flutter and float; their energy just exudes with grace; so much tenderness, kindness and compassion. I'll let you know a secret to it~ keeping your heart soft, open, forgiving and loving. And the thing is, one can't fake it. Even if one tries to, you can sense it, and it will eventually break. *Crash Kaboom Bang*

When you hold a grudge, it hardens your heart. And honey, it will be reflected in your face and energetic field. Your energy is almost tangible; people can feel it whether they are aware of it or not. So when you're holding on to bitterness or unresolved pain, that becomes the mask you wear, the aura you project. And let me tell you, it won’t serve you in the long run.

You don't want that now, do you ?

And sooner or later; what you are you attract; and what you are not, you will repel. What you are, will stay with you;what you are not will leave you.

Don't mistaken love, compassion, kindness and forgiveness as weakness, because they are the real strength anyone could embody.

Yeah, I know, sounds cliche; some say~ but they will later realise that it is not, once they have experienced it themselves.

Much Love,

xx

Miza